yes yes I know..I have been gone for soooooooo long..but trust me have been meaning to write for a MONTH! but get distracted with work...have been really busy with cinematography and then directing of a 16mm film..this semester is very production (aka the physical act of making a film) stuff...but almost done..three mroe weeks and we are DONE!

Also, on the news, I am interning ont he Warner Bros lot...will be very interesting and I hope that I can make contacts because for what I want to do and how I want to do it..seems like I will be writing grant proposals all my life and try and turn it into a watson fellowship forever..the thing is that filmmakers are self-employed and while that is an interesting thought...it is really cscary as you have no  insurance of a check coming in every month! So I gotta be really really active and just keep tyring..speaking of active, in trying to do these productions and do written homework and be with my baby and friends and attend screenings and watch films on my own and read scripts and htink of ideas..I really don't have enough hours int he day.

Also, darting back and forth from pasadena, while necessary, I feel takes a lot out of my concentration!

Oh yeah, new news is that I have moved into an apartment downtown..really really nice palce alhamdulilah! Enjoying it every bit but sometimes I really feel lonely and wnat to go to pasadena and stay there for a looooooooong while..duno, have been really up and down these days..this business is so nerve wrecking that at times just settling for a lame photcopying and making coffee job at a studio (which is what my internship will be) seems almost relieving..to think of it...a Caltech grad doing that!

I interviewed at a lot of places (basically 2!) and didn't get it..really threw me off cuz I thoguth the interviews were great..atleast that is what they make you feel..yeah, that is what I wnated to talk about..how much FLUFF there is in hollywood...my mind goes bonkers trying to figure out what ppl reall ythink! That is why ppl who have been in the business far too long are so paranoid and never take yourword for anything..they keep looking for subtext..sigh, it is always about communication problems..ins't it!

What else..ahve been working out and trying ot cook whenever I have the time..have been visiting the motion pic academy for events and just hitting up events all over..am just trying to really focus on getting some brilliant ideas and working on them this summer...

want to shoot a lot of street scenes but dunno how that will be in Pakistan..maybe cna shoot my servant ladies home...

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